What a concept! I don’t believe I’ve ever considered humility as a conscious and constant prerequisite for gratitude or prayer yet it makes all the sense beyond this world. The last time I lay before the Lord imploring more grace than I had yet accepted, it didn’t occur to me that I was being arrogant. I thought of myself (if I thought at all consciously) as being merely desperate.
Looking back I have to acknowledge that the very stench of entitlement that I accuse others of wearing as a mantle was draped so heavily about my own shoulders that only grace can justify why such prayers are ever answered. Obvious, perhaps, but clear as a bell now.
All this time I appear to have been waiting for a private encounter with The Big Guy Himself when all I needed to do was step out of the way, turn my back on the mirror of self, and get on my knees, more than physically. He’s all ways there, here, everywhere and He’s Able! If you haven’t guessed already, Oswald Chambers has a stinging reminder for that as well:
It is not true to say that God wants to teach us something in our trials: through every cloud He brings, He wants us to unlearn something. His purpose in the cloud is to simplify our belief until our relationship to Him is exactly that of a child – God and my own soul, other people are shadows.
Go figure: As an educator, I get to unlearn a few things. Can I get an amen on that one.